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Wednesday, February 13, 2019

Gage by J.M. Dabney - Blog Tour with Excerpt and Q&A with the Author

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GAGE
TRENTON SECURITY BOOK 3
J.M. DABNEY
M/M ROMANCE/SUSPENSE
RELEASE DATE: 01.29.19

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The forbidden is the sweetest lure.

Trenton Security’s Public Relations go-to was Hayden Gage. He loved his job, and it kept him distracted from the demons haunting his nightmares. His past wasn’t up for discussion, and Hayden wouldn’t allow it to intrude on his future. Yet, that was easier said than done when his best friend came to him desperate for help, and it put him right on the path to his one weakness.

Young didn’t equal lost.

Derrick Thorpe lived in the shadow of his father’s mistakes. Although he was adopted by Linus Trenton, he wanted to prove that he wasn’t like his biological father. When he was asked to go undercover to help at Trenton Security, it put him in close quarters with Gage. Being Gage’s was only an act, but when lines blur, what happens when the operation ends?


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Dishes rattled, and the low murmuring of conversations filled the interior as the lunch rush started to slow down at Heidi’s Diner. Typically, Gage ate alone before returning to the office, but today, he hadn’t turned out to be so lucky.

“How about I buy you dinner, Gage,” the confident young man across the table from him asked.

He stared at the boy as if he'd lost his mind. He slowly closed his laptop and calmly leaned back in the booth. The first time he’d seen Derrick Thorpe the kid was skin and bones, skittish from years of abuse by Derrick’s homophobic and racist father, the former Sheriff of Powers County, Georgia. The last time he’d allowed himself to be in the same space with Derrick, he had graduated from college. His boss, Linus, adopted Derrick and his toddler brother after the death of their father and, well, the mother hadn’t fought Linus when the man demanded she sign over custody.

Today Derrick was a man in his mid-twenties, and even with the pale blond stubble, he was still as pretty as the last time he’d seen him which had occurred Christmas a year ago. He’d made his excuses and went to stay with friends for the holiday. Fighting any of the Crews to get out of a family function always turned into a lost cause, and he’d found it easier to escape.

Gage forced a chuckle and a good-natured smile at the eager boy in front of him, but he felt neither of those actions. Because his greatest hell sat across from him and there was no way he’d ever allow the boy close to him.

“Not going to happen, kid.”

“Why not?” Derrick looked offended.

He wasn’t fucking around with some boy with Daddy issues. No matter how much he wanted to find out what his handprint looked like on the boy’s ass. Derrick wasn’t for him. Age difference aside, with Derrick’s history, he wouldn’t let the young man find out how interested he was.

“Go find someone your own age, Derrick.”

“What’s this got to do with age? I’m an adult, and I think I’m old enough to know what I want.”

He felt the muscles in his jaw clench. He didn’t like telling people no twice. When he made a decision, it was final. This little boy was asking for a spanking. A vision of Derrick over his knee came to mind, and he banished it as quickly as it appeared. This was getting out of hand. That’s why he’d avoided anything that had to do with seeing Derrick.

“And I said it wasn’t happening. I don’t like to repeat myself, Derrick.”

Derrick’s chin lowered to rest on his chest. There was a deep breath, and then Derrick looked up, his dark brown eyes shimmered with indignation.

“Yes, sir,” Derrick pushed the words through clenched teeth.


1) Who are your writing influences?

I don’t know if I can answer this question as I don’t think I have any actually influences. When I knew I wanted to be a writer, I’d developed an obsession with Beatnik literature in my early teens. They had this frenetic energy to it, a poetic edge and I wanted to create something like that. I wanted to write stories that broke the norms. One that had a life of their own. To be honest, I never saw myself as a romance author, I thought I’d completely crash and burn. I was quite surprised when my non-traditional characters/relationships were well-received.

2) Is there a genre you'd like to write in but haven't yet? Do you have any plans to venture into that genre? Why or why not?

Actually my greatest fear is Young Adult, but I will be stepping into the YA genre soon. As I’m switching genres I’ll be writing under another pen name. M. Jameson. I’m excited to bring my body positive/diverse stories to YA. I’m terrified but very much looking forward to the challenge.

3) What kind of music do you like writing to? Or do you prefer TV or silence? 

This one is a bit hard. Each story is different. I wrote one book to standup comedy specials one after the other. One story wouldn’t flow to anything but Opera. Ghost was actually written to death metal. And sometimes, I need silence, especially if my brain is too full and I’m having an issue with focusing. It all comes down to what project I’m working and what the voices like.

4) Do you have any writing rituals? 

Other than writing in 45 minute sprints with a fifteen minute break, I don’t have much of a ritual. Routine is important to me, so I try to write the same amount of hours everyday. The hardest thing for me is that I’m completely nocturnal, so my most productive hours are between 1 am and 6 am. I find I can’t settle in to really write until then.

5) What's up next on your writing schedule? 

I have several project on the schedule. I just finished a Dark Romance called By Way of Pain for a multi-author series called Criminal Delights my contribution will release in May. Pure is definitely on the schedule for a March 2019 release. There’s also the second book in a MF series I’m working on. But projects always change depending on what holds my attention. So it’s a surprise even to myself.


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J.M. Dabney is a multi-genre author who writes mainly LGBT romance and fiction. She lives with a constant diverse cast of characters in her head. No matter their size, shape, race, etc. she lives for one purpose alone, and that’s to make sure she does them justice and give them the happily ever after they deserve. J.M. is dysfunction at its finest and she makes sure her characters are a beautiful kaleidoscope of crazy. There is nothing more she wants from telling her stories than to show that no matter the package the characters come in or the damage their pasts have done, that love is love. That normal is never normal and sometimes the so-called broken can still be amazing.

Friday, July 13, 2018

Pursuing Happiness by Jessie Pinkham - Blog Tour with Excerpt and Author Interview


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Book Title: Pursuing Happiness

Author: Jessie Pinkham

Publisher: Jessie Pinkham

Cover Artist: Katia V. Michelet

Release Date: July 12, 2018

Genre/s romance, contemporary, gay

Length: 53,000 words 




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A repressive childhood casts long shadows.

Growing up in a reactionary religious household left Matt Aldridge socially inept and woefully underprepared for life in the wider world. He’s still trying to figure himself out when he meets his hunky new neighbor, Collin Moravec. Matt likes him at first sight, and miraculously, Collin feels the same.

When his cousin Levi shows up needing a home, Matt doesn’t hesitate to take him in, even as it throws his own world into disarray. He’s determined to save his younger cousin some of the struggles he faced. But taking on this responsibility brings up old anxieties, and in his terror of failing Levi, Matt pushes Collin away. He has to move beyond his fearful upbringing once and for all, or he’s going to end up miserable – and alone.


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“Now, about that sexual to-do list. I’m dying to know what’s on it.”

An adorable blush blossomed on Matt’s cheeks. “I think there’s a lot of potential for fun with a can of whipped cream.”

“I’m completely on board with that.”

Finally Matt relaxed. “You’re a very good boyfriend,” he remarked.

Collin figured that meant he’d said the right thing. Good. He took Matt’s hand and laced their fingers together. “So are you, and if I hadn’t already known that my coworkers made sure to tell me yesterday.”

“How did the grant application turn out?”

“Well, it doesn’t scream ‘thrown together at the last minute,’ so it could be a lot worse.”

“I know nothing about grants,” said Matt, “but I have plenty of personal experience in the red parts of the state, where you said you want to do outreach. Maybe this is weird pillow talk, but…”

Collin interrupted. “Our pillow talk can be whatever we want.”

“Okay. Have you considered how much tougher it will be to go out and talk about LGBT acceptance with people in very conservative areas? I mean really thought about the ruling mindset there?”

They certainly weren’t going in blind. Regardless he wanted to hear Matt’s opinion, if for no other reason than to understand his boyfriend a little better. “We expect to be called a lot more nasty slurs.”

“That’s obvious. It’s not just the insults, though. The thing is that a lot of these people – not all, but a definite majority – are not even going to consider what you have to say. The religiously inclined, which again will be a good percentage, will consider it a given that you’ve been deceived by Satan. So there’s no reason for them to even consider what you have to say, see? Anything they don’t like can easily be written off as inspired by Satan. It’s a very neat system if you don’t like thinking too hard. And it makes us very easy scapegoats for anyone, religious or not, who doesn’t like how the world is changing.”

“There are going to be some people who remain homophobic no matter what we say or do,” acknowledged Collin.

“Some might become more tolerant with personal contact, when the LGBT community isn’t something abstract and instead they know someone who isn’t heterosexual. Then there are the people like my family.”

“Bastards. But we know that. What we want to do, at the very least, is give some hope to LGBT people who feel isolated.”

“They certainly need it. Here’s the thing, though. It’s easy to be anonymous in the city. People can go to Ted’s Place without anyone they know having a clue about their visit to an LGBT center. In rural areas it’s not the same. If somebody stops to talk with you or takes pamphlets or whatever you’re doing for outreach, they’ll be recognized and before long half the town will know. The smaller the community, the worse it gets in that regard.” Matt sighed. “I’m not trying to discourage you, I’m just being realistic. I would never have dared talk with anyone doing LGBT outreach. Far too dangerous.”

“That’s depressing. It’s good to know, though. Obviously this has to factor into our plans.” He lacked ideas on how to work around this very serious roadblock. Well, Rome wasn’t built in a day. Collin would share this perspective with his colleagues and go from there. “Any suggestions for us to get around that?”

“I’m afraid I don’t have any brilliant solutions. The internet is good. My family was unusually restrictive in that area, but it probably helps a lot of other kids. Just keep in mind that in some of these conservative areas, you’ll be entering enemy territory.”

“War metaphors?”

“Not a metaphor. They will literally see you as the enemy. Inspired by Satan, remember? It’s spiritual warfare and you’re the advanced guard. That’s how a lot of people will see you.”

“Damn,” said Collin. He imagined an army wearing sparkly rainbow uniforms, armed with lube and condoms, maybe doing something stereotypical like singing show tunes. “Here I thought I just wanted people to live in a way that makes them happy, and now I find out I’m in Satan’s gay army.”

Matt frowned. “I’m serious, Collin.”

Oops. His last comment had clearly been too flippant. “Sorry. I was going for lightening the mood with humor but clearly missed the mark. This is important to know. And honestly, it speaks to how strong you are that you were able to escape that.”

“I’m not sure being kicked out counts as escaping.”

“You could’ve gone to conversion therapy, pretended to be cured, and lived the rest of your life miserable and accepted by your family. You chose the harder option.”

“True,” said Matt. “Totally worth it.”

Collin traced random patterns on his boyfriend’s chest. “I’m glad to hear it. If you didn’t think it was worth it after that blowjob, I’d have done something terribly wrong.”

This time Matt let him lighten the mood. He winked and said, “No worries there.”

“That’s a relief.”

“You know that saying about praise going to your head? They’re talking about the head on top of your neck.”

“How do you know?” countered Collin.

Matt opened his mouth to protest, then paused. A second later he admitted, “That’s actually a good question.”

Score one for being a smartass.

About the Author

Jessie writes M/M romance and loves a rich fictional universe as much as a good happy ending. Her published works include the novel Survivorsand the Tea and Empathy series, and her work has been included in anthologies by Evernight Publishing and JMS Books.

She's usually writing more than one new book at a time, and frequently rushing out at the last minute because she got lost in her own fictional world.


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The figure from history you would most like to buy a pie and a pint…

So, nerdy history grad alert here. I’m going to say Otto von Bismarck. He was such an accomplished and somewhat enigmatic statesman, and he had a huge influence on late 19th century European history. What he pulled off is truly astounding, and I always love to learn how and why the world got to be the way it is now.

The piece of wisdom you would pass onto a child…

I would say not to worry about what other people think. I wasted a lot of time in middle school trying to get the popular kids to like me, and they weren’t even nice girls. However, this is hardly new advice, and I think everyone has to learn it for themselves, judging by how many of us failed to heed this wisdom coming from our elders.

The treasured item you lost and wish you could have again…

I’ve never lost something so irreplaceable that I’m still pining for it. However, when I was a kid one of my Little House on the Prairie books vanished, and I could never find a replacement with a cover as nice. (Mary had a bright purple dress which I loved. Odd the details which stick with us.) Years later I’m still perplexed as to where it ended up.

The crime you would commit knowing you could get away with it…

Hmm, this isn’t going to turn into self-incrimination, is it? If I could somehow hack into all databases and erase every last record of student loan debt, that would be amazing. It’s a huge albatross around my neck and the necks of so many others, and it’s draining billions of dollars which could otherwise be entering the economy.

The philosophy that underpins your life…

It’s too short to compromise myself to keep other people happy. I grew up in a family where that was expected, and I’m so over it. I enjoy my life much more now that I’m living it for myself, not conforming to someone else’s expectations.

The character you enjoyed writing the most…

I loved writing Collin in Pursuing Happiness. He’s fond of smartass comments, which are a blast to come up with. Sometimes it took a while to get the remarks perfected, but it was a fun process.

The character you found difficult to write…

Matt was all over the place in terms of how easy he was to write, and parts of his story were difficult because it was like holding up a mirror which magnified my own flaws. I actually took a break from this manuscript for many months and let it sit while I wrote less personal tales.

So, some passages came very naturally because they were me pouring out the challenges of moving on from religious abuse and a toxic family, and other parts were much harder as they required me stepping back and looking more objectively. At some point a story has to become its own entity, distinct from whatever experiences may have inspired it, and that detachment can be tricky when a character is very close to the author’s heart.

The book you enjoyed planning/writing the most…

Planning, hah. I am a pantser through and through; if I had to have a complete outline before I started writing, I’d never have finished a single story in my life.

My short story “$250,000 Love,” part of Evernight Publishing’s Lawless Anthology: Manlove Edition, was a blast to write. I’d never even considered creating an antihero before, so I started writing the story as a challenge to myself and a way to push my boundaries as an author. It was a useful exercise in that regard, because I think it’s always good to take steps out of our comfort zones. Once I came up with the premise, I had a lot of fun with my unrepentant mobster MC, Mal, who thinks laws are for people too weak of will to protect themselves any other way.

And the promo…

Pursuing Happiness is, at its core, about a man wrestling with his demons. Matt was raised in a reactionary religious, homophobic environment, and that kind of upbringing has a lot of lasting impacts. It’s an entirely different mindset, and not easily abandoned. You don’t go right into happily ever after when you have such a childhood, and I wanted to explore the process of moving beyond a repressive childhood to a fulfilling adult life.

My hope, beyond telling a compelling story, is that readers come away with a little more understanding about how a reactionary and isolating childhood can play out, and how fear serves to paralyze people who might otherwise abandon that lifestyle as adults. It’s not just the religious aspect in and of itself which is problematic; it’s also the lack of social interaction. Matt is inept when it comes to interpersonal skills because he didn’t grow up interacting with anyone outside his family. This is a massive disadvantage in life.

From the beginning it was obvious to me that Matt would have a pet, but it took some time and research to decide exactly what animal. I didn’t want him to have the usual cat or dog. His pet needed to be less common than those while still friendly and happy with human contact. Plus, it couldn’t be too exotic and expensive, because Matt is on a limited budget. I decided a bearded dragon fit the bill. They’re sociable and like to interact with humans, even if the care is more than I’d want to take on. This was confirmed not long ago when I took my nephew to the insectarium and we saw a bearded dragon chowing down on live roaches. (Great for a little boy, if something Aunt Jessie could’ve lived without witnessing.) They are fascinating creatures, though, and I think Dex is perfect for Matt.


I love the cover for this book. While Pursuing Happiness isn’t a sweet romance, it’s not all about the sex, either, so I wanted a cover which would convey romance and personal growth, not a half-naked hunk conveying “read this for the sex!” Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy a nice half-naked hunk very much, but it’s not this book. I think it helps that the artist read the first draft, so she knew the feel of the story and captured it beautifully. 

About the Author


Jessie writes M/M romance and loves a rich fictional universe as much as a good happy ending. Her published works include the novel Survivors and the Tea and Empathy series, and her work has been included in anthologies by Evernight Publishing and JMS Books.

She's usually writing more than one new book at a time, and frequently rushing out at the last minute because she got lost in her own fictional world.

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Monday, July 17, 2017

Trans Liberty Riot Brigade by L.M. Pierce - Blog Tour with Excerpt, Author Q&A, and Giveaway


Title:  Trans Liberty Riot Brigade
Series: Trans Liberty Riot Brigade, book 1
Author: L.M. Pierce
Publisher:  NineStar Press
Release Date: 7/17/17
Heat Level: 2 - Fade to Black Sex
Pairing: No Romance
Length: 80800
Genre: science fiction, speculative, alternate reality, intersex, queer, political revolution, drug/alcohol use, oppression, police state, dark, violence, gore, dystopian

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Synopsis



Andi knows being born an intersex “Transgressor” and then choosing to stay that way can have lethal consequences. After all, surgical assignment is mandated by law. But she ain’t going to spend her life hiding from the Society, hooked on Flow, and wanking tourists just to make a few bucks. She’s a member of the Trans Liberty Riot Brigade, an underground faction of Transgressors resisting the government’s war on their illegal genitalia.

But it’s not enough to tag their messages on shithouse walls and sniff down the next high. The government has found their headquarters, decimated their ranks, and they’re crushing the resistance. Though Andi might be nothing but a junktard, she embarks on a desperate dash to stay alive and send a call for help before they’re all killed—or worse, surgically assigned.

Andi, together with Brigade leader Elenbar, must get beyond the communications block preventing all radio transmission, which means crossing the seaboard Wall barricading the United Free States borders. It’s designed to keep enemies out and the citizens in, but amid increasing earthquakes and deadly pursuit, Andi will discover there’s a far more dangerous secret hidden deep within the Wall itself.

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Trans Liberty Riot Brigade
L.M. Pierce © 2017
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A Sorta Prologue

“Oh yah? Well, fuck off then, you cuck!”

He’s a penny pickle dick anyhow.

I walk into the men’s public shithouse and slam the door behind me. The splintered starburst of mirror glitters under the yellow lights. The reflection’s sportin’ a shaggy haircut like someone’s gone faggin’ buggers with a pair of kitchen shears. My pupils are blown black and wide with the upshot of Flow coursin’ through my veins.

That pickle fucker ripped my shirt.

I examine the ripped collar in the refraction of the broken glass. My hair ain’t too long, ain’t too short. I’m still man enough, should someone, maybe Pickle Fucker, come pokin’ around after me. Though, if I’m real honest, I’m gettin’ sloppy. Just like Elenbar’s always sayin’—keep yer head down, don’t draw eyes ta ya—but it’s a chafe to move through the world as a mere pockmark of who you really are. Yah, I’m still me, though they call me a “she,” but if I keep hackin’ at my hair, I’m gonna look more like the dangerous “Transgressor” news stations are always shriekin’ about. But underneath it all, underneath the shag, that’s what I am.

A Transgressor on a shithouse mission.

On the cracked vid screen in the ceiling there’s some report about us right now—another undercover operation arrestin’ a pack of Transgressors. They don’t wanna get the snip-and-clip, the assignment surgery that’ll turn us from who we are, into what they want us to be. They’re reportin’ two dead already—more to come, if you know news like we do. I shudder, imaginin’ gettin’ my delicates all mangled up by a doc with a blade and a twisted sense of divine providence.

I approach the urinals squattin’ against the far wall. Smell of piss cakes and wankin’ stains waft through the air, a strong reminder of this location’s dual purpose. I peek under the stall doors, but there ain’t no tourist trout loafers tappin’ a signal for a blowie or a pop-off. Though pickle fucker was a bust, I’m still hopin’ to cop some rand coins from a trout. Since I made the long trip and all. Don’t matter, though. There’s other work to be done.

I slip down my pants and jut my pubic bone and mini-man toward one of the white bowl interiors. Urine spurts, and I huff with relief. There ain’t no company to gawk at me, and unlike squattin’ in lady piss stalls, like a good li’l “she,” this is good, it’s good. Feels right somehow.

I zip up, don’t wash, and at the exit, I whip out the chubby marker I carry with me everywhere. The embossed man symbol on the bathroom door gets a scrawled-on miniskirt, a crotch sweeper hardly proper enough for street walkin’. Though after I finish the big circle and the crosshatch over him, li’l man’s got an identity problem, the blessed “he” symbol now one of those dreaded Transgressors. A s/he, they hiss in the not-so-quiet corners of the world. Well, the Society will be along to reassign h/er in short tit order, I’m sure.

I press a kiss on the new Transgressor. It’s a tough thingtryin’ to be alive these days.

I hear a whistle, the chitterin’ bird call of my hip-mate. Waitin’ for me to do what I came here to do. So I scrawl TLRB in big black letters on the door. Somehow it don’t seem enough. So I write “A riot is the language of the unheard” next to it, one of my fav tidbits by a righteous guy. A guy who got gunned down for bein’ the wrong color and bein’ of the wrong mind. The Society don’t like people of the wrong mind. Hey, I know, the message ain’t nothin’ fancy, but the truth don’t have to be. It’s just gotta show up.

The Trans Liberty Riot Brigade was here.

Lover’s Quarrel

“Spare us a Nut, would you?” Pint gropes at my chest, fingers searchin’ for some sign of the familiar rectangular box. His head of orange pubey curls tickles my chin, and his eyes roll loose in their sockets, the corners beet red and weepin’ yellowish slime. A puff of a Nutri-Stick could take the edge off a wicked withdrawal, but I ain’t got any and push him away.

“Jesus, here, fiending like a puckerfucker. Yer an embarrassment.” Elenbar flicks a Nut at Pint’s feet and sweeps back her long red hair.

He drops like a Bridge Street jumper, kneecaps a dull smack against the pavement. Blood seeps through his pants, and he fumbles with the stick, hands shakin’ with the withdrawal fever he’s fightin’. He brings the white tube to his chapped lips and jams the button to activate a smoky flow of vitamins and downer. Helps with the shakes, the fever, the gut punches to come.

Bosco glances up from his readin’ in the corner and shakes his head like he don’t approve of people bein’ alive at all. The whole room’s hot, air thick with chemical sweat and the smell of Pint’s sick body.

Everybody’s quiet, watchin’ Pint squirm and whimper on the ground. The small radio built into the wall of our headquarters mumbles:

“On this day, our Patriot’s Day, we remember those lost in the Great War and those still fighting the Daesh Eye threat overseas. Thankful are we to the Wall protecting our citizenry as we are thankful to the Society who guides us from ruin. Patriot’s Day of holiest remembrance, warriors of the Lord on High. Remember danger lurks not only abroad but within our own homeland. Those who would sow fear among us, the Transgressors who―”

“Turn that shyte off.” Elenbar glares at the green glowin’ light of the radio.

Bosco hops up from his seat and flips the switch to red.

“Faggin’ cucks.” Here I am, sittin’ pretty on the upswing of a warm solid high and good ol’ news from the Society broadcast gotta go bringin’ me down. See, lettin’ it get so bad is amateur shit for crotch sniffers like Pint. “You know, you gotta pace that shit out, stay in control, Pint. Stay on top of it. It’s how they get at us. If the Brigade’s nothin’ but a bunch of junk-tards twitchin’ and blasted off, who’s gonna listen?”

“Andi, just shut yer mawhole fer a pissy pretty second.” Elenbar slaps my dome with the flat of her metal clunker hand and my ears start ringin’. “Weather’s nice ’top that seat ya got? The pickle pricks yer sucking fer that seat? Brigade represents all people, not just the slick and squeaky clean. We’re like this fer a reason, ya know that, so stop talking like ya don’t.” Elenbar’s green eyes spark with rabid rage.

I rub my stingin’ head and eye my shitkickers instead of meetin’ her glare. “Look, I’m just gnawin’ on it. We might be like this for a reason, but we’d howl the Society right down if we weren’t just…” I need to drop it.

“Well, when ya get off and stay off the Flow perma-like, Andi, ya just fucking send me a postcard. I’ll slap yer fruity dicklips on the cover of Brigade: The Softer Side. Yer a junkie like the rest of us. Ya ain’t no better than any of us.” The gravel in her voice hurts more than the slap. “Ya do the marks like I told ya?”

She points her bionic metal finger at the borough map spread on the center table, the corners weighted by beer cans filled with gravel. This cinderblock shack is the headquarter hub of the Trans Liberty Riot Brigade. We just call it the Brick because it looks like nothin’ more than a maintenance shed. Basically is.

“Keepers. I marked up all the west front and the shithouses on the south.”

“Heard ya was hooking on the run. Again.” She flexes her right fist, curlin’ the metal jointed fingers like she’s testin’ it. The bionic arm’s a newly acquired thing and ain’t none of us used to it, especially not Elenbar.

Bosco’s eyes are on me, and I can’t keep the red outta my cheeks. “Just once and didn’t slop up anyhow. Just a tourist trout from outta the neighborhood.”

“Didn’t slop up? Then how ya think I’m hearing it? No hooking on the runs. Not ever, not fer nothing. Don’t care if the president’s begging ya fer a pop-off. Ya were seen, by one of ours, but ya might get remembered by someone else next time.”

“But not this time.” My beatin’ ticker’s takin’ missteps all over the place. I feel woozy.

“No, not this time. But it brings too much heat, attracts all sorts of problems. Ya keep it clean and straight fer the runs. Now, head ta Lover’s Lane with Bosco. He’ll fill ya in as ya go. Fagging twat.” She spits the last words and stalks outta the Brick, her lip wrinkled in a sneer of disgust.

Pint whimpers from his withered crouch on the floor. He tries to rock back on his feet but falls again. Don’t think he’s gonna be able to get up, and no one goes to help him. This ain’t the first and it ain’t gonna be the last time he’s quiverin’ on this floor. Pint’s got the hook worse than most of us combined. Smoke snakes from his mouth like someone’s lit him up from the inside. There are some things a good ol’ Nut can’t fix.

Elenbar likes to think I talk about things I don’t understand, but I do. The come-down off Flow’s some of the worst feelin’s in the world. The tremors start at the edges of your peripheral vision, li’l specks of dark like you’re rubbin’ your eyes too much, but they stick around, get bigger. Soon it’s rumblin’ through the threadlines of your nerves and your stomach clamps on your sack of guts. If you don’t rupture somethin’ internal, you can usually ride it out. But too many of us drag or get dragged to Dr. Chambers, beggin’ for a fixer. Most of the time he does us right, but he comes with a price. If you don’t have the rands to pay, he does accept other kinds of trade. Right and honest maybe, but still a sadist fagger.

Flow also comes in waves, and the nods are comin’ down on me, my body shudderin’ and losin’ some cohesion. I try not to let the fade happen too hard, or I’ll be right next to Pint on the ground. Gotta stay on top. Stay in control.

“Heh. Andi’s going wonky. Dr. Chambers’ll take it outta your ass, for effing sure, you wanker.” Bosco pounds me on the back, jerkin’ me from the pleasant grayspace I’d slipped into.

The weight of the nods dissipates a bit. “Suck a dick duck, ya cuck.”

He smirks, liftin’ his eyepatch to wink at me with the perfectly good blue eye underneath. He’s a faggin’ anglosax dramatic, fancies himself a limey punk-riot pirate. “Knockers. You coming with me to Lover’s Lane or what?”

“Keepers. Let’s get this shit right, though. I ain’t a fan of repeat business.”

Elenbar’s given us our instructions, and we gotta obey like the good soldiers we are. I try to pretend it don’t matter, but a trip to Lover’s Lane always gets at me, clawin’ deep inside my fleshy core where my feelin’ parts must be. I hate every minute, even though I ain’t seen her prowlin’. Every time I gotta go back, the possibility of seein’ her punches me straight in the mawhole. Nah, Lover’s Lane ain’t no love at all.

When we step outta the shack and into the night, I see Elenbar by the chain link, gazin’ at the shoreline of the Anacostia River. The water’s a shade of blotchy underpants, grayish yellow from the repeated wash and piss stains of the world revolvin’ around it. Lights fester on the river’s opposite edge, the shimmerin’ world of the Uppers, filled with people standin’ atop the shit crust of this Slumland the rest of us gotta live in. Elenbar cuts a statuesque silhouette against that distant glow.

Our little pocket of alleyway is littered with trash, knobs of it caught in the honeycomb fence line. You could follow that chain link all the way through the different sections of our quarter, if you wanted. Not that the fence serves any purpose. Rusted-away pockholes mean we could still duck to the water. Not that we would. The water incubates far worse than sewer sludge and dumped bodies, but there, across the rushin’ river, is Elenbar’s past, and I hope, someday, her future.

“Elenbar, you coming with us?” Bosco asks.

She wrinkles her nose at him. “I’ll stay here with Pint. Needs ta get shored up with Dr. Chambers. Apparently, I run a goddamn nappy factory, wiping yer shitty asses.”

“He’ll be all right,” I say.

Elenbar glares at me. “Aye, he will. But what about ya? Don’t fuck it up, Andi.”

Bosco touches my elbow, and together we slink back through the shadows of the alley, swallowed up in the bosom of the Slumland haze.

Back alleyways are transit of choice for scum breathers like us—like me—prowlin’ among the rats, kiddy-diddys, and other junk-tards. For the rest of society, it’s easier to ignore us, pretend we’re not there. We don’t fit into Temperance—the political catchphrase inflamin’ politics like a mutated case of syphilis. And though it smells of jizz wrappers and moldin’ dumpsters back here, I don’t mind the alleys so much. Keeps the questionin’ eyes away. Is she one of them? A Transgressor? A s/he? Why can’t they get h/er off the streets, reassign h/er like the rest?

But there’s more and more of us now. Some of us pass all right, wearin’ proper lady locks and skirts or sportin’ gentlemanly attire if such is our preference. But most of us struggle, eyes followin’ us wherever we go.

Bosco’s ahead, struttin’ to a prick-bustin’ beat pulsin’ out the back end of the Loosey Goosey Club. The back door butts up against the alleyway, and it’s here we come across Lucky Lips.

“Effing effer,” he whispers. Then he cups his mouth and lets out a chitterin’ series of bird calls. The ones we use to signal our hip-mates when we’re runnin’ our tags or an op.

She flinches and whips around like it’s a pinch on the ass. Bosco chuckles and sidles up to her, greetin’ her with a smarmy hug. His callused hands look like grease smears on her white latex dress. Lips’s got a smolderin’ Nut between her teeth, and she grimaces, pullin’ away from him.

“You smell like shyte, per ush.” Disdain strums her vocal cords, and she sounds prettier somehow, lighter and girly. Even her face, she’s already pale as milk, but her skin’s been painted ultra white, with large streaks of blue over her eyes. And her breasts, ones that don’t come natural home-grown, are crammed almost to her chin. I try not to stare. I’ve never seen Lips look this way, with tits like this, and in a dress too.

“Naw, serious now, where you been? Elenbar had the whole Brigade on fire lookin’ for you. Thought you up and drained out on us—you hawking Flow?” he says. His smile’s playful, but she frowns like it ain’t play at all.

Lucky Lips glances up the alleyway and drops her voice.

“Just shut it. I’m not Lips anymore. Name’s Lucy. Now get outta here. I don’t wanna call someone around, but I will if I gotta.” She glances at the backdoor of the club, where a bulgin’ beef steak stands with crossed arms. Watchin’ us.

“What the eff?” Bosco frowns.

“She’s been assigned.” I put a hand on his shoulder.

He wrenches free of me. The rims of his eyes water with horror. The look you get when you realize someone’s fallen beneath the waves and the person you’ve known and loved’s drowned and dead forever.

“Lips. What happened? What the eff happened? Is that what this is?” He grabs her wrist, his mouth a cavernous black gash of rage. Her nipples are hard in the chill clip of night, and he pinches one. “You think this is real? That you can escape what you are?”

“Feck you! Feck you, aye? Tell Elenbar she’s a fool. You all are now! How long can you go on playing at riot? It’s all a joke, ain’t—no, isn’t it? It’s all up someday, isn’t it?” She jerks away, cheeks burnin’ hot. Then she soothes her poofed dome of hair and nods toward the rump roast at the door. He slinks back inside, and she huffs an angry sigh. “Look, they patched me up. Got me off the Flow, and I can earn me some rands in a tight dress and clean hair. It’s not so faggin’ bad after all. Better than scootin’ around, s/he arses in the dirt.” Fury’s brought out her accent, and she sounds like Lips again. The real Lips. But I know, understand real clear, that Lucky Lips is dead.

“S/he? Oh, pardon, like weren’t a season ago you were swinging your pecker ’round the quarter? S/he now—look, Andi, we’re just s/he scumsuckers to Miss Cock Queen of all the Land!” He laughs, lookin’ crazy as he spreads his arms wide, and gestures to the grime of the alley we stand in. A roach sips from a puddle of gutter fly puke. “Society slut, you’re just an effing Society slut. Gonna take that dick along with the poke of the Society stick?” Bosco grabs her arm again, twistin’ hard, and Lucy shrieks, her wrist at a funny angle.

I grab his shoulder, tryin’ to stop him because if he don’t, they’re gonna—

“Citizen, desist! You are in violation of the peace. Release her.”

We all freeze. We are straight, lubed up, and puckerfucked. Bosco lets go immediately, his mouth a pinhole of surprise.

“All right, all right. We got heated, it’s all right.” Bosco raises his hands, palms out.

The clunk-a-junk Security & Citizen Enforcement officer glares, red glowin’ bulbs where fleshy eyeballs would be. Assignin’ security to portable lug nuts I guess makes sense from an Upper’s point of view. No subjectivity, no bias. You can’t bribe a clunker. They stand upright; a coffin-shaped reinforced body of painted steel, hidin’ all the mechanical guts, nuts, and bolts of the system. The head’s a calculatin’ mass of probabilities and policy, enforcement and control. What made sense on an administrative level don’t translate so well to us faggers who gotta live with it. They use human Enforcers in the Uppers. Down here in the Slumland? We got a robotic task force seemingly programmed to fuck us on the regular.

“Yah, he’s right. We’re leavin’ Lucy here and continuin’ on our way.” I say it slow and clear. No misunderstandings. Tryin’ to be cool, easy. But it ain’t gonna fly. Not even a li’l tit bit.

“Ma’am, please resume your normal activities. Sir, please submit to a gender screening,” the clunker buzzes, polite as pie, sinister as fuck.

“Ah. Well, I can’t, things make me gag. I’m liable to throw up all over the place, all over you and the lady—” Bosco’s green eyes meet mine. Ain’t none of us want to be on the radar, gotta stay out of the system as much as possible.

I sprint towards Lover’s Lane while Bosco splits in the other direction. The clunker processes for a second before rollin’ after Bosco. Yah, they roll. Spry motherfuckers have got off-roadin’ equipment, chains, and regular asphalt rollers. Ready to deal with any and all situations.

“Bye, Lucky Lips! Hope you choke on a bucket of dicks!” I shriek over my shoulder, reckless immaturity givin’ me strength and speed. I’m still sprintin’ because clunkers round up quick. No doubt, any moment, they’d descend on our location like cockroaches, infestin’ the dark crevices of our back-alley world.

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When did you write your first story and what was the inspiration for it?

I journaled and wrote a lot of small stories and poems as a child, but my first “legit” story was actually my first novel. We were assigned a short story project in 7th grade and once I started writing I found I couldn’t stop! A global terrorist with a big ass bomb and a team of specialists assembled to stop him! My very patient teacher encouraged me and when I turned in a 100-page monstrosity to her 3 weeks late, she simply beamed and said, “I can’t wait to read it!” These are the golden moments in any child’s life and I spent a week bursting with nerves waiting for her feedback, while secretly wondering if she would actually read it or just slap a grade on the front. When it was returned to me, there were notes throughout the entire book. Not only had she read it, but she praised my efforts and gave me my first critique! I was ecstatic and at that point my writing journey truly began.

Do you have a writing schedule or do you just write when you can find the time?

Eh, I try to have a schedule… but I don’t operate well that way. Especially being in graduate school, I find most of my mental energy during the semesters is completely tapped. During school breaks I try to maximize my time and summer is usually a productive season for me. However, every day I get up in the morning, have my coffee, and try to work on something related to my writing, even if I’m simply posting in my writer groups or participating in Twitter hashtag prompts.

Briefly describe the writing process. Do you create an outline first? Do you seek out inspirational pictures, videos or music? Do you just let the words flow and then go back and try and make some sense out it?

Oh goodness. I drive a lot of people crazy when I tell them I don’t outline anything. Well, I should say that I don’t usually. I’ve developed some basic outlining skills and I now use beat sheets to track story and character arc. However, that’s about as far as my planning goes. I usually write that shitty barebones first draft and then go back and add to it, expanding on plot points, world building, and other aspects I might have glossed over in favor of finishing the damn thing. I now realize that this approach is a little problematic when writing a series or trilogy. With Brigade I’ve spent a lot of time trying to map out all the threads I created after the fact. This is far more time consuming than it probably would have been to have these built-in as I go. Live and learn, I suppose, but Book 2 and 3 will have a fairly different process because of my experience with Book 1.

Where did the desire to write LGBTQIA+ stories come from?

I identify as queer and pansexual, so my desire is largely personal. My experience of coming out, with my girlfriend, as the first gay couple in our high school, also had a profound impact on my desire to tell these stories. When I married my now ex-wife, gay marriage wasn’t even legal, and now, married to a man, I am often enraged by how much easier it is as a “passing for straight” person than it ever was when I was “obviously” gay. The exchange of privilege, target memberships, and the different complexities present in every one of my interactions with mainstream societal norms, illustrates again and again, how important these stories and individual experiences are.

How much research do you do when writing a story and what are the best sources you’ve found for giving an authentic voice to your characters?

I tend to research as I go, though I reserve the bulk of it for after the fact, since research can become a lovely black hole sucking away any writing productivity. However, I find the best source for authentic voice is in the world around us. Even if we’re writing characters in space, on alien planets, or in parallel universes, there are many themes that tie these experiences together. I’ve heard many writers say dialogue is often the hardest part, but dialogue is actually my favorite thing to write! Reading it out loud to myself or to my critique group has taught me a lot about authenticity of voice in dialogue. Also… eavesdropping while standing in line or sitting in a coffee shop. People are funny, dastardly, and extremely fucked up. Makes for great dialogue every time!

What’s harder, naming your characters, creating the title for your book or the cover design process?

Yikes! Well… all of these are hard in different ways, but character names often pop out at me without much effort on my part and I love graphic design so creating a book cover is often good fun! However, the book title I find most challenging for a variety of reasons: 1) Because I hope to be able to tie theme or character or world together in a meaningful and aesthetically pleasing way. This is often infuriatingly difficult. And 2) because no one ever seems to agree on what you should do whenever you dare to ask for advice! There’s a lot of varying opinions on book titles and what they should accomplish so… yeah. Book title is probably the most difficult. I recommend a working title of “someday I’ll finish this flaming heap” for anyone uncertain of where to start.

How do you answer the question “Oh, you're an author...what do you write?"

I usually just tell them “speculative fiction” and that attracts a lot of blank stares, so I’ll follow it up with “kind of like science fiction. One of my books has psychic chickens and zombies!” And that’s usually enough to convince them to smile, nod, and promptly get the hell away from me.


What does your family think of your writing?

Hah, I can’t wait for them to read my book! Actually, I’m usually scared shitless when people in my personal life want to read my work, because there’s a huge juxtaposition between the dark and often gory stuff I write, and my very gregarious peace-loving self they are familiar with. However, my family tells me all the time how proud they are, so even if my book isn’t their cup of tea genre-wise, I know they are very pleased with my dedication and perseverance.

Tell us about your current work in process and what you’ve got planned for the future.

I’m neck-deep promoting Book One of the Trans Liberty Riot Brigade trilogy, while trying to finish Book Two, plot Book Three, and did I mention I have a book about psychic chickens and zombies? I also recently began conceptualizing a second Brigade trilogy that takes place on the west coast with a different set of characters. I also have another completely different trilogy, of which half of Book One is finished—though I’m already planning on completely re-writing it. In short, I am never never never EVER lacking ideas or current projects!

Do you have any advice for all the aspiring writers out there?

Keep writing! Seriously. Commit to writing the first shitty draft. I spent yeeeeears unable to finish a single manuscript because I was stuck in the “edit as you go” model. This paralyzed my forward momentum. Now, to satisfy my “edit as you go” desire, I bring one chapter at a time to my weekly critique group and edit that one, while slamming out words on the rest of the manuscript. It took me a long time to get to this point and it probably would have never happened if I didn’t break through and commit to the shitty first draft—allowing me to complete my first project, then the second, etcetera. In addition to my mantra, having a really good and trusted critique group completely changed my writing and launched me skill-wise in a way I don’t think I would have accomplished on my own. I started with online writing groups, which was great when I didn’t have access to an in-person one, but once I found my now weekly critique group, the benefits have been exponential.

If you could travel forward or backward in time, where would you go and why?

Forward in time, just to see how it all goes down. I have often mused that I would love to be immortal because I have a sick fascination with how the world will end and all the changes coming in our future. And, to be honest, I just want to see Star Trek happen! … and Seven of Nine. Just saying…

We’ve all got a little voyeurism in us right? If you could be a fly on the wall during an intimate encounter (does not need to be sexual) between two characters, not your own, who would they be?

I just saw “Wonder Woman” so I am completely enamored with Themyscira and visions of sexually free and fluid warrior women bound through my head on a regular basis. Antiope and Diana in a Mentor/Mentee sexually educational session? YES PLEASE. 

If I were snooping around your kitchen and looked in your refrigerator right now, what would I find?

Chunky honeycrisp applesauce, cottage cheese, Noosa yoghurt, bell peppers, hot mustard, ground turkey, chicken sausages, salami, lettuce, and a metric shit-ton of condiments of all varieties.

If you could be a superhero, what would you want your superpowers to be?

Invisibility is a good one, but thanks to “Wonder Woman,” (and my Xena infatuation) I just want to be an epic warrior badass who can crush my forces with godly strength and shoot arrows while flipping off the back of a horse. I’m a girl with simple desires.

If you could trade places with one of your characters, who would it be and why?

Yikes, I write dark dystopian fiction so… really? Probably none of them. Though, I will say, Bird Man does live a more idyllic sort of existence on the coastline, so I would swap with him and play with his birds, hang out with Boy, and keep my eye on intruders in the Wall.  

If you could sequester yourself for a week somewhere and just focus on your writing, where would you go and what would the environment be like?

Snowy mountain cabin. Seriously. I used to live in Montana in a sort of snowy cabin and there’s something about outdoor desolation that really fuels my creative spirit. Plus I don’t feel so guilty about being hunkered down inside, wrapped up in blankets, and drinking hot coffee. All while surrounded by beautiful snow and gloomy skies.


What's the one thing, you can't live without?

I’m going to assume metaphorically because air? Water? I couldn’t (or wouldn’t) want to live without my husband because he is seriously so much fun, my BFF for reals, and supports me in all my crazy shenanigans—it’s okay, here’s a barf bag—and then the requisite coffee and chocolate.

What internet site do you surf to the most?

Twitter, Facebook, Pinterest, and Reddit, though there’s a ton of other sites I spend way too much time surfing, so let’s just keep it simple.

If you had your own talk show, who would your first three author guests be and why?

Squee! I’ve always wanted my own… oh, no, wait, you said talk show? I want a show. Of people. With their heads down. Reading. So the library, basically I want my own library.
But if I was forced into a talk show travesty, I would love to feature Stephen King, not only for his writing work (his early horror novels inspired a lot of my work) but because he is very much in my political wheelhouse and it would be a blast to make fun of Drumpf with him. JK Rowling for that same reason and because I’m a Potterhead through and through (Ravenclaw!) Aaaand, more obscurely, I would resurrect Mikhail Bulgakov and pick his brain about “Master and Margarita” and his experience in burning the first draft of the novel, which ended up being published posthumously.

When you got your very first manuscript acceptance letter, what was your initial reaction and who was the first person you told?

Well, my response was tepid skepticism. I checked with my husband and my BB4L, Dante, and had them review the letter to make sure it said what I thought it said. Then I researched and stalked and interviewed their authors. Romantic, huh? I guess I had been traumatized by one too many horror stories of scam houses and schemes to exploit new authors… I wanted to be careful. Then! I signed the paperwork and only then did I truly celebrate! And for the record, NineStar Press has rocked my proverbial socks off throughout this whole process so much love to them!


Meet the Author

“Hey, but what if…?” Music to Lindsay’s ears. She is a graduate from The Evergreen State College and bathes in the sweet liberal waters of the Puget Sound. Or she would, if it wasn’t so polluted. She is a lover of the new and the old, of asking questions and contemplating possibilities. Lindsay’s work is primarily speculative fiction and she is an unapologetic Nerd. She lives with her husband and four fur-babies in Olympia, Washington.

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